When I was 6, I'd walk up to my parents with these little toy stethoscopes and play check-ups. 'I'm gonna be a doctor one day! I want to save lives!' I'd say.
When I was 12, I had a knack for the sciences. Worked extra hard in grade school to save myself a seat in a well-reputed high school 'Well, maybe a general doctor,' I'd chuckle. 'I can't stand blood and syringes so becoming a surgeon's not an option'
When I was 14, I got into the highschool of my choice. Over the semesters, competition was becoming so fierce. Seemed like everyone was great. Then somewhere in there, I started to overestimate my intellect 'If I did well in grade school, then I'm capable of handling this without having to put in as much work' It was hard enough keeping up with math, and physics was hammering me down. At the same time, my friends and I joined talent quests and did well in them. 'What if I follow my parents' path and try a career in the entertainment industry (My parents are musicians)?,' I thought with utmost ignorance. 'It's way more fun and I'll get to meet a lot of people.' The light at the end of the tunnel began to fade. My focus shifted and that burning desire to excel in the sciences went poof. I wanted to become a TV star.
When I was 16, I transitioned to taking the arts. I had a knack for languistics. French, Filipino, Cantonese, Japanese etc. came into the picture. I was so excited to explore the outside world. Even got myself into my school's drama production, played Psyche's confidant, Calypso at 15 and planned on working my way to theatre or television. People encouraged me to 'Go for your dreams!'. Little did I know, I was going the wrong direction.
When I was 18, I arrived in the states, still all giddy about getting into telly. 'Join American Idol!','try that local theatre','there are some good modelling, acting agents you should go for', people would say. However, some would counter that with 'Where are you getting with that career?', 'it's not stable','why not pick something more secure?' I joined singing competitions, received compliments. I actually thought I could succeed in the entertainment industry. Then I started to see my limitations, the harsh reality of an entertainer, the competition and the level of consistency needed. I began to doubt this route.
When I was 19, I was lost. 'What am I doing with my life?', I'd ask myself. How did it get to this? That dream of getting into hollywood felt unrealistic and immature. I wound up with jobs I never thought I would be doing. Such included setting up an online store, helping take care of a boutique etc.
Today, at 21, I've been doing office/paper work for an aunt who's a nurse, for 8 months consecutively. She'd come over to the house and mentor me about certain disease types, skills, medication and how the body works. Never in my life have I felt more enlightened. I've thrown the prospect of hollywood in the trash (of course) and am picking back up on where I left off in highschool with the sciences. If it weren't for this opportunity, I would never have realized how much I love the medical field. Today, I'm back where I was when I was 6. Only now, I'm going to buy a manual blood pressure monitor/stethoscope to understand better how blood pressure works and the precautions to take when it's either too high or low. Hard work is the key. Today, I'm walking up to my parents once again saying 'I want to become a doctor one day! I want to save lives!'
*cross your fingers* for me that I'll be able to start school next fall :)
Originally intended for the British Public in 1939 in the wake of WWII
It's a good motto to live by, even today :)